It's 3 sleeps till I leave Malaysia for Italy and the Way of St Francis. And it's proving to be another one of those where the phrase "I'll sleep when I get on board" is going to ring true.
I had just spent the better part of my evening, in a car, travelling to check out the way to my daughter's examination centre. Poor dear is going to be taking her 1st major exam when I'm away - talk about good timing! Maybe there is a blessing in disguise - Mummy won't be around to stress her out any further!
But coming back to my point of today's reflection (which has been far and few!) ~ I'm not really preparing myself for this potentially life-changing journey! Sure, my bags are packed. My magic folder is all ready. But is my mind: physically and spiritually ready? ~ that's the question I have for myself tonight.
After all, a pilgrimage is a journey to a place of holiness. And the definition of holy is "exalted or worthy of complete devotion as one perfect in goodness and righteousness." I am no where aligned to goodness and righteousness, that much I can tell you. Nor is the devotion anywhere near starting point, what more completeness!
So it is worrying. For while the body may be able to push - my experience from the Camino in Spain tells me that my mind and spirit must be able to dig deep as well.
So no .. it may be only 3 sleeps till I get on the plane: I feel I am a lifetime away from going near the grave of St Peter!
Please keep this Barbsie in your prayers!
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